Continuing on from my last post, it's the wake up call, the shock to the system, that men like these muscle-bound beasts, can confuse the hell out of your idea of who and what's attractive to you....and can even force you to question your own long treasured beliefs, PROFOUNDLY!

So I'm straight, aren't I?? I keep trying to reconcile my belief in my own profound straightness, with the obvious, VERY obvious fact, that the pictures inside this magazine I so casually picked up, but now can't get out of my mind, HAVE CHANGED MY VERY IDEA of attraction and even the gender which turns me on....

A huge part of me wants to get the magazine out and show the awesome pics of Gaspari, to my friends, like I would of some hot girl....It takes EVERY iota of my little strength to NOT show them, because I WANT to see them again myself...to drink in their ridiculous, hard muscular hotness, that floored me in every conceivable way; that made me 'think again' in the most profound way! A MAN, who can make my dick so hard, I feel I'm going to explode?? And I genuinely want to know: 'Is It just me, or is this guy HOT or what?'....What do you think guys?
But something stops me....fear of ridicule perhaps, or maybe just the rawness of my own so recent 'confusion', but maybe more than that, that THIS IS MINE, and I can't think of ANYTHING other than the burning lust in my loins for this beautiful, massive man. I just want to be alone with Rich, and my magazine pics, to explore this shocking new attraction and lust and envy for these huge, hard manly muscles....My dick can't be ignored...it wants what it wants, and it wants private time with Rich and the hardness of my dick matching the hardness of Rich's bod!

Remember, until a few minutes ago, I had NEVER even questioned the 'fact' that men are not attractive to me....men are mates, pals, but fundamentally ugly!" So, I'm in shock, still reeling from the sledgehammer blow that these pictures of a Muscle God had made on me: Maybe if I show them to my friends, they'll feel the same?? Maybe they will be shocked to the core, in seeing the incredible sexual attraction, of a massively muscled, hard-as-f**k male physique?? It's SO tempting to share this revelation.....but I don't

No matter how I try to spin it, these pictures of Gaspari, have my young dick bursting, through my jeans, absolutely and totally LUSTING after this MAN'S hard, muscular body...How 'gay' is that for God's sake? I've NEVER been more besotted, more turned on and randy in my LIFE, and it's for a cliche of 'gayness'; a big, muscle-bound bodybuilder posing, and strutting about in a pair of speedos while I look on and ogle his amazing body, ffs!!It would be comic, if it weren't so bloody real and urgent.....

Somehow I made it to my train stop without blabbing or showing off my new crush of crushes....I got off and ran home, clutching my muscle mag as if my life depended on it. I got to my room, and closed the door...FINALLY, you and me Rich....let me look upon those fine muscles of yours, and pay them the homage they so deserve....
I didn't even have to touch myself....I just EXPLODED while gazing upon Rich's leg workout pics! Those huge, hard ripped quads and hamstrings like a race horse, not to mention those amazing, rock hard diamond-shaped claves, that seemed to take up the whole of his lower legs.......Man I was gone....

I couldn't understand it, but for the 1st time in my life, I was looking upon a man, okay a very special man, with such huge muscles, bulging veins, hardness, and the apparent power of a raging bull, but a man nonetheless who made my heart skip, my throat dry and my dick so hard it actually hurt!! I think I came at least 3 or 4 times just looking at those workout pics, right after each other....And I've never recovered from the shock of seeing those pics in that Train Station, nor the shock of experiencing the power of a muscle-bound man to confuse the hell out of me and my apparent certainties....

I would explore this whole new-found lust/attraction for musclemen further of course, but it all started with that casual look through a muscle mag, and pictures of a muscle God that changed everything for me...Hell it changed me!